When All Alternatives Are Gone
2005.08.12 6:59

Michiko declined to meet me these two consecutive nights saying she feels extremely nervous on her circumstances. I already knew that she is not a healthy woman sometimes when out of my presence she seemd to show some mental disturbances. (She told me she took some anti-depressants regularly)
Eri's gone to Australia. Not likely to come back till next month, some girls are ok to see me provided that they can see me without serious intention. They are too frivolous. And others don't like to see me because for fear that the relationship with me hurts their further relationship with other guys. They are too serious.
I'm not married. So I have nowhere to go when rejected by all those who have relationship with me. When all alternatives are gone, I have to find the new one. It takes time and not likely to get another one in a week or two. While doing this Eri will come back in September. Ah, how miserable single life is!