Sunday, April 30, 2006

Existence

Existence
2006.03.22 5:17

When I opened the browser, I feel like I went back to where I am supposed to be. Here is where I belong. When I am in my real life in a daytime, I am a traveller from the country called Slashdot. If I were asked from the police which nationality I have, I would reply I am Slashdotters.
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Might not be a good idea(Score:1)
by StalinsNotDead (764374) on 2006.03.22 5:39 (#14966918) (Last Journal: 2006.04.26 23:15)
If I were asked from the police which nationality I have, I would reply I am Slashdotters.I don't know what kind of involuntary psychiatric admission laws Japan has, though.
--I never imagined there might be a time that I would die defending the Constitution from those sworn to uphold it.
Re:Might not be a good idea(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2006.03.24 3:24 (#14981905) (http://mercedo-compl.../2006/04/zen-ya.html Last Journal: 2006.04.28 3:11)
I will be deported to Slashdot every night.
--Ancient Greek Philosophers -18c Enlightenment Thinkers -Slashdotters
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geography(Score:1)
by weierstrass (669421) on 2006.03.22 8:16 (#14968113) (http://retropolitan.blogspot.com/ Last Journal: 2006.03.10 5:32)
i have come to think of the inside of the computer as something which exists in its own three dimensional space, which i travel through or peer into. literal cyberspace. this doesn't of course necessarily correspond to real space, when i log on at college, i am entering a different part of this world then i do on my computer here at home. but i am able to travel to the same places. but wherever in physical space i log on to my college account, which ever computer room or library, i am in the same part of cyberspace.also, sometimes i look at the screen of my laptop and am surprised that i don;t recognise a face..
--Slow Down Cowboy! Slashdot requires you to wait longer between hitting 'reply' and submitting a comment.
Re:geography(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2006.03.24 3:40 (#14982053) (http://mercedo-compl.../2006/04/zen-ya.html Last Journal: 2006.04.28 3:11)
Seems you are enjoying your surfing inside the Net and on the screen.
--Ancient Greek Philosophers -18c Enlightenment Thinkers -Slashdotters

If I Really Love Her

If I Really Love Her
2006.03.20 22:21

I let her go, I let her go to see somebody else.
You see our nature is strange. Unless we have a steady woman, we feel insecured, so we want a steady girl-friend, we always see her in daily basis. On the other hands, if we always see her every day and night, we feel bored. We think we need a new relationship or at least new encounter in our life. So sometimes I am eager to see someone else.
Once or twice in a month, she doesn't come home directly. Every now and then she came home very late at night. The next day when I asked she said she had a party with her colleagues. So I say it's nice, you ought to attend such a party.
I think if I really love her, I let her go whenever she wants. Since I want her to have more meaningful moment in her life even if it includes some physical relationship with other guys, I don't care, I don't care, I don't want to care.
Tonight is the eve of holiday -vernal equinox, she hasn't come home yet. She here refers to my ex-wife, our friendly relationship started after we divorced, and still keeps on.
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It's(Score:2)
by Stargoat (658863) <stargoat@gmail.com> on 2006.03.21 0:36 (#14956925) (Last Journal: 2006.04.30 13:35)
It's not really about love in this case, it's about the things associated with it. Trust, respect, honor. Without these, love ceases to be an emotion experienced and shared between two people, and denigrates into lust - or at the very least mere compassion. But I think you understand this already.
--Hoist Number One and Number Six.
Re:It's(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2006.03.22 2:22 (#14965073) (http://mercedo-compl.../2006/04/zen-ya.html Last Journal: 2006.04.28 3:11)
I see her every day. So tonight I confirmed her whereabouts last night. She said since she's going to change her position in her workplace, she had to work extra hours to hand over documents to the next person in charge. I asked, 'What time did you get back?' 'It's 8:10.' Since we don't live together, I have no other way but to believe in her say. I hugged her strongly saying 'I felt jealous, jealous, jealous, jealous..repeatedly.
At least I know it's bad to have desire to monopolise someone whom I love. I learned a lot how I couldn't monopolise my love through experience, so I let her go, let her go wherever she wants.
I just don't know her whereabouts tonight too. It's sad for us this is the way our relationship keeps on. Here in Japan, pretty women are very rare, so they are liable to have lots of seduction from attractive guys. Here in Slashdot, we have no section to show our photos, so I can say in various way.
I watched her image in my mind closely. She cannot be the one I am anxious about.
--Ancient Greek Philosophers -18c Enlightenment Thinkers -Slashdotters

Cold Wave

Cold Wave
2006.03.20 3:01

We had another cold wave. It's 8 degrees Celsius inside my room, it's 3 AM we had air-conditioned but still it's very cold. In northern part of Japan they are expecting unexpectedly large amount of snow and storm.
I will have one more hour to slashdot with enduring this coldness.

Picnic

Picnic
2006.03.20 1:34

We -my ex and I went on a picnic near our residences. The destination was XXX Athletic Field and Horiculture Centre on the foot of Mt Oil. It was thirty minutes past noon. We went to the park, and actually we found no one but us in the park. We climbed the small hill of orange tree, it was a little bit windy though, it was nice weather we just wondered why we only two were there in such a nice day on the day off Sunday. No one except very few were there, in the city of Yahoo! like with a population of more than 1.3 million, it is very rare.
We spent there for a couple of hours receiving full of scent of nature from both mountain and wind, then we went home. She let me get off in front of my house. It was 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Then I realised why we didn't see any people in the park. It was in the midst of Korea versus Japan, World Baseball Classics. Thanks to the rain for 45 minutes that interrupted the game, I was able to watch a little bit of the game.
Japan won. As if it were Japan won in play-off. Korea was apparently stronger than any other team. Japan will face Cuba the day after tomorrow. Mr Oh is a fortunate guy.

Justice

Justice
2006.03.20 0:35

You shan't kill others.
This seems iron axiom, but actually it's not, instead we have to say that You shan't kill others unless they do harm us.
When we found venom in our society, what shall we do? We keep on enduring without doing anything? No, it's not the kind of answer. We have to expel him out of the society we belong. It seems to me we need another venom to remove him. Actually we don't call the way to expel him venom, it's justice instead.
Justice should be done not only from someone's decision, but collectively. Otherwise we all are likely to be victimised from him. That ought not to be done. Oftentimes we our society as a whole collectively decides to execute someone. If someone did harm to us, we call it justice not manslaughter.
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bad translation(Score:1)
by eglamkowski (631706) <eglamkowski.angelfire@com> on 2006.03.20 21:34 (#14955958) (http://www.angelfire.com/nj/eglamkowski Last Journal: 2006.04.30 3:54)
If you're referring to the biblical commandment. It should be more correctly translated as "thou shalt not murder". This allows for self-defense, warfare and other legally justifiable uses of lethal force.
--Government IS the problem.
Consistency(Score:2)
by Morosoph (693565) on 2006.03.20 22:35 (#14956162) (http://homepage.ntlworld.com/tim.wesson/ Last Journal: 2006.04.24 18:35)
I don't find the translation "thou shalt not murder" rather than "though shalt not kill" is compatable with looney teachings to "turn the other cheek", "forgive 490 times" (rather than seven), etcetera.
I believe that rightists are trying to turn a looney religion sane.
Better to give it up, IMO.
Mercedo: The idea of self-defense is that one acts to prevent harm to oneself or others, or else further harm. If they've already done you harm, the proper defense in law is provocation, as it's too late for self-defense to apply.
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Re:Consistency(Score:1)
by eglamkowski (631706) <eglamkowski.angelfire@com> on 2006.03.20 22:42 (#14956192) (http://www.angelfire.com/nj/eglamkowski Last Journal: 2006.04.30 3:54)
You're mixing New Testament with Old Testament."Thou shalt not murder" is Old Testament, and I've heard it from hebrew speakers that it is a bad translation to use kill instead of murder."Turn the other cheek" is New Testament.I'm not a rightest and I'm certainly not religious, but I have studied religion quite a bit out of morbid curiosity.
--Government IS the problem.
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You're right, of course(Score:2)
by Morosoph (693565) on 2006.03.20 23:06 (#14956321) (http://homepage.ntlworld.com/tim.wesson/ Last Journal: 2006.04.24 18:35)
I think that my real point is that so many "Christians" pick and choose between the Old and the New Testaments. Actually, that's not fair: they pick the Old Testament, and interpret the New, emphasising Jesus's sufferring over his teaching, since his massage is utterly incompatable with their political beliefs.
Christianity, properly interpretted, is communism.
The "Christian Right" should covert to Judaism en masse, IMO.
Yeah, I find religion strangely fascinating, myself.
--The death [tinyurl.com] of reason [slashdot.org]
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Re:You're right, of course(Score:1)
by eglamkowski (631706) <eglamkowski.angelfire@com> on 2006.03.20 23:15 (#14956364) (http://www.angelfire.com/nj/eglamkowski Last Journal: 2006.04.30 3:54)
In Texas, the Christian Right is converting to Islam because Christianity isn't fundamentalist enough.*rolls eyes*Now, if God himself appears on Earth and takes control of the world by instituting a literal theocracy, I'll bow down and do whatever He wants, communism, facism, democracy, whatever. Until that day...
--Government IS the problem.
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Re:Consistency(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2006.03.22 3:20 (#14965567) (http://mercedo-compl.../2006/04/zen-ya.html Last Journal: 2006.04.28 3:11)
Mercedo: The idea of self-defense is that one acts to prevent harm to oneself or others, or else further harm.
Agreed.
If they've already done you harm, the proper defense in law is provocation, as it's too late for self-defense to apply.
My understanding as to provocation is even if someone committed crime in response to other's provocative acts, that wouldn't become a good excuse or reason for those who committed the crime to be lenient.
A little bit philosophical though, self-defence and acts against provocation, functionally speaking both are similar, but self-defence is lawful act, yet acts against provocation is unlawful.
Provocation is offence, being provoked by someone, something.
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Re:bad translation(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2006.03.21 1:19 (#14957297) (http://mercedo-compl.../2006/04/zen-ya.html Last Journal: 2006.04.28 3:11)
If so, my argument was entirely out of the point. Now I made it clearer than before. Writing articles makes me know clearer notions. This is also one of the Slashdot effects.
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Re:bad translation(Score:1)
by eglamkowski (631706) <eglamkowski.angelfire@com> on 2006.03.21 1:46 (#14957517) (http://www.angelfire.com/nj/eglamkowski Last Journal: 2006.04.30 3:54)
Most people don't realize it is a bad translation and go through their entire lives thinking it is "thou shalt not kill". Common problem.
--Government IS the problem.
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Saturday, April 08, 2006

Zen Ya

Saturday, April 08, 2006
Zen Ya XVIII

Soushita koto no subete wa suijou(on the water) no gassou(ensamble) dakara boku ni wa toutei obotsukanai.
Senzai(detergent) wo tsukatte wa kirei ninaru hame wo shiru rashii to iu kara hotel nami da.
Arashi no naka wo fune ga susunde iku
Nezumi ga ippiki shinda
Sore wa kono hi(day) wo shitte ita no ka
Chiisana mushi(insect) wa mushiro sukinakurai de
Boku wa furo no naka ni namikimichi wo mita

Kore de kono shi(poem)no hanbun ga sugita ga
Itsumo wareware no mae ni tachihadakarukoto wo shiranai de boku wa iru

20/Sep/1980


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Zen Ya XVII

Ink wo keshite Koroshi wo yamete
Tasogare wa mizu(water) ni nabiku gozen(morning) no yuuhi(sunset)
Tetsutachi(steels)was ishi(stones) wo kuchiku(kick out) shi
Mirai wa kono toki wo tsukuru
Tenmon(astronomy) wa hirakarete iru to iu kara
Tonde iru hibi(days) no natsu no yuugure da.
Soushite mo nao, boku wa mi ni oboe no nai koto wo ukenakereba ikenai
Higaisha wa gaijin wo kuroku someru rashii. Kuroi yuuhi wa sono ba kagiri de atte wa ikenai shi, mata sono te wo boku ga namete miru.

Moromoro no
Yuugure no naka no atama wa karappo
Demo boku wa yukou
Kasakasashita genjitsu de aru to wa omowanai
Toritachi ga mizube de kuchi wo tsugumu you ni
Imamade no koto wa subete kuchi wo tsugunde
Ikanakutewa ikenai Shuppatsu no tame ni mo
Sore wa arera ni mo mashite
Shinde iru shigai(corpus) wa kitanai to iu node
Boku wa yakudousuru nyotai(woman body)wo motometa no de aru ga

Sorekara ikunichi ka tatte
Boku no tokimeki ga naku
Temoii to iu hibi(days) wo genshutsu surumafuyu no hibi(days) wo

Hinode to tomo ni boku wa iku natsu no yuugure
Sore wa 'Zenin(approval)' to iu imi nano da
Konomama susume to iu shimizu no oto ga kikoeru
Ano yama no sanpuku kara wa
Machimachi no sugata wa mieta de arou ni
Hashikiraneba naranu Kono fuyu no hibi(days)
Natsu wo keshite
Moeteiku onna no karada no ue(up) de
Boku wa tada naranu koto wo shirihajimete iru no de



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Zen Ya XV

Sonzai wa boku wo yagate hi(sun)no naka ni mitsume naoshi
Hankachi no kitte(cut) otosareta tokoro wo chi(blood) ga nurarete iku no wa nanto mo fushigi na ki ga suru no da
Tokoro de boku no shitte iru koto daga
garasu no mae no onna hodo kirei ni boku wo ishiki surumono wa nairashii to iu kara
Soushita koro taiheiyou jou wo kirameku okugata ga hadaka de nurashita otoko no kawo mo shiru no da.Kounatte kara to iu mono koroshiai wa Gadalcanal no rentai(platoon) wo moromoro ni shita.



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Zen Ya XVI

Garasu wa kuzure ochite
Douyara sebiro no otokotachi wa
Koushite itsumo kawasuji no semai michi wo tootte gakkou wo koroshimete iru rashii ga,
Boku ni wa sore ga kyoufu ni mo miezu, doushitemo onnanoko ga suki de aru kara,
Onna ga aruku no wa kaidan wo kegasu ubaguruma no chichi(bosom) no chi(blood) no niwoi wo kagu koto ga hitsuyou de aru to kiku(listen) no wa,
Totemo ii kimochi de mo
Yagate tsukisasaru mono wa nuite mo shiranyo to iihanachi,
Tondemo nai tokoro kara boku wa iikimochi de neteiru to iwareru okusama tachi wa shiawase de aru.
Nagai doubutsu no seikatsu kara kontoki wo egaku pen no nagare wa onna ni shiawase wo ataeru hakuchou no kubi no nagasa de aru kara
Yuki(snow) ga futtemo boku ni wa tondemo nai koto no you niwa omowarenai aki(autumn) no yuugure wa subarashii to iu hibi(days) wo motsu no wa, kono boku ga osoreteiru.

Shikashi sore wa boku no yowasa dewa naika toiu manatsu no hibi(days)



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Friday, April 07, 2006
Zen Ya XIV

Boku wa koushite kousha(school building) wo mioroshite itte mo
Sukoshimo zunuketa onna no mata wa boku no ouzora no naka ni tobitatte ite,
Douyara higashi no yama migi no kawa no aida ni boku no katsuro ga miidasare souda.
Koko de neratta emono ga dondon nigete iku ga,
Boku no ryoujuu wa sou wa ikanai
Himalaya no uki no naka ni mita onna no ashiato ga sonokoto wo suiryou(assumption) shite iru no de,
Sore wa yurushigatai
Tonikaku hanabana ga
Kuuchuu wo migoto ni mioroshite iru kara soushita moromoro no dekigoto wo shojo(vergin) no umai(sleeping well)ni kurabete mite mo dounimo naranai.
Mijiban no ue wo hashiru pen no hari wa
Tokei de mo sore ga mienai fuusha(windmill)no garandou de aru koto to onaji nano dakara
Sore wa boku ni wa tsuuyou shinai no de ikanaru mono mo onna no asoko wo shiru no wa itsumo kaze no naka ni kiri wo miru Sascatch no tozantai wa shinu koto wo aete shinai to iu kara sore was boku da.
Sore de boku no migiude ni ude kara deru chi(blood) no naka no sakebi ga yuruku sadou(operate) shihajimete,
Sunawachi koboreochiru tomodachi no hashigeta ga kuruhi mo kuruhi mo boku wo kurushimeta.


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Thursday, April 06, 2006
Zen Ya XIII

Tokoroga sono hi
Boku wa yume ni baku wo mita ga
Sore wa douyara onna wo imi suru rakuda no you na tourui(luctose) wo shiru hame ni naru rashii no da ga
Douyara boku ni wa magic no you ni mieru kara
Fushigi wa kazukazu no shirewaza wo umi
Shadatsu na ounou wa iyoku suru douro wo sakamichi ni suru rashii
Monogatari no haaku wa yamayama no tenkai wo youi ni shi, sore wo miru ike wa yagate mizu wo nakushite iku
Tori tachi no mure ga itsunomanika senkai(go around) suru higashi no hou e iku no wa
Itsu kara ka shirenaiga totemo miwake ga tsukumai
Soredemo yagate kawa gun no Jona wa pet wo mochiiru to iu kara
Fushigi ga umu yorokobi no kimochi wa boku ni wa totemo kimochi warui
To iu hito ga koko suujitsu
Ano kami de boku wo mihiraita no de
Douyara boku wa koko ni iru bike wa tsuppashiri jigoku wo kakemeguru hibi wo tanoshimou de wa nai darouka.
Demo, yahari ano onna no chichi(bosom) wa doubutsu no nakigoe dakara.
Tsukande mo suitsuku ichijiku no me(eye) wo boku no mono de suitsuku to wa sore wa kekkou na hanashi daga,
Atama wa dekaku te nakami no nai onna yori mo, mashi rashii to iu kara omoshiroi to,
Itte(say) iru otoko wa den'en no naka de
Douyara dojou(water eel) wo tsukamaete korosou to shite iru rashii ga,
Sentouki(fighter plane) ga meguru kono toki koso wa
Yagate kubi wo kiru you ni naru rashii no wa, tsumari kouiu koto nanoda.
Shokuji(meal) ga nai kara asu wa matt no ue de tsuki(moon) no deru ban wo tan naru yama yama no naka ni miidashita to iu kara
Boku wa mitsumenaosaneba naranai kazukazu no youi ni wakaranai kono otoko tachi no mure wo sagashite iru koto ni naru to iu
Tent no mukougawa(over there) ni hitsuji tachi no mure ga kawa no mizu wo motomete
Kuuchuu ni tobu tori no oukina hito no kao wo doko kara ka kiite kiteiru you de aru.
Kao ga tobitachite mo ii no wa
Mu(nothingness) ga tsukisasaru no wo kuitomeyou to shite mo muda da to iu no ni niteiru(similar) no da.
Soushita wa
Aru makiba de ushi no naka ni tama(bullet) rashii nagare boshi wa hirameku no de
Boku wa douyara ma(evil spirit) ga sasu nakama wo mi ni tsukehajimeru no wa ittai douiu wake darou.


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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Zen Ya XII

Itsushika asa ni nari
Itoguruma wa iro pen wo kushi (let them work well) shite nagareru me no namida wasore wo yurushi wa shina.
Chigaku no sekai wa tojirareta onna no me wo hiraita sono me wo kazaru subete wa ashi ni aru to shiru rashii

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Zen Ya XI

Yagate kuruma ga ugokidashi
Pen no ink wa kasakasa ni natta kigi no douro no kiri no naka wo kemuri wo kutte ikiru roba ga senryou shihajimeru toki
Boku ni totte wa saidai no yorokobi wo motarasu node, itsushika onna tachi wa ie ie no kemushi bwo kuu.
Sore wa wakiga no you
Sonotoki ie ie no denki wa kesare
Kuro ga kiiro wo medachitagaru no wa
Douyara hei no waki no cobra ga boku no te wo nameteiru
Kigi wa midori da
Doushite koko wa ekimae no douro de
Hitobito ga tou(tower) ni
koushite ikiteiru ashitachi wo tsuretekuru hon no kazukazu no page wo onna ga migomoru no wa itomo youi daga

Tsukare wo iezu
Entoukei no mineral wo momihosu to soko wa yagate uchuu wo hiraiteiku katachi wo miidasu no daga, tetsu no kusari wa mon wo kizuku tenshi no mure ga hane wo mushirare
Boku no katawara ni onna no katame to ashi no kirehashi ga boku wo ijimeru.
Iwanakute mo wakatte iru.
Tetsu wa kami(paper) yori kuihajimeru no wa kawarui(leather goods) no mure ga jougi wo kowashite iku Amazon no ashiato wa itsumo saisho da.

Helicopter kara dangan ga
Itsumo miehajimeta tsumoride kai wo taberu toki
Tsukare wo shoujiru kawa no mizu no sai(rhino) no yume wa itsushika hikari wo hanachihajimeru.
Me wo shiru toki boku wa odotte tsuno wo heshioru.
Hercules no hanaiki ga kodai kara ima ni itaru madekamikire wo uchuu no ankoku no tokoro kara hanatsuno wa
Akuma no kami no hangyaku wo sore wa imisuru typewriter no oto ga asu no onna no kazukazu no katachi kara souzou(imagine)o suru boku no me



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Zen Ya X

Hikarabita kaminoke no naka ni sonzai no oku no hana ga, doyomeku gunshuu to tomo ni warera ni hikari no sanbi wo motarasu toki
Samazama na kokemushita musumetachi no ie ie ni
Tetsudai wo mooshideru wakai hatarakite tachi no ashiato
Koushita subete wo zenin suru tenjou no kamitachi no moromoro no tezawari
Sunawachi buta wa ki wo aishi
Christmas no sanka wa korera wo hidoku muchiuchi
Shikamo mata sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshita warera no te no kawatachi wo
Boku wa hitotabi waraou to shita

Sore wa douiu wake ka boku ni totte wa shiroku mie
Sono hikari wo waratte iru onna tachi no chibusa ga
Boku no me no mae ni Ikizuku hima mo naku
Neko wa ue e noboru


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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Zen Ya IX

Gen ni ishiki sareta jibun ga sore de aru to iu hoshou ga nai no to douyou ni toki wa hon(book) wo koete, taionkei no suigin wo ningen wa kuu. Shokushita mono ga shi(death) ka ore no utou(right head)ga shi(death) ka. Taete sono minori wo jisshi shi, kitarubeki daikannan ni sonaeyou de wa nai ka.
Madamada zen'ya de aru. Yoru ga kureba ore wa matomo ni naru. Oo Majo---------

Yameyou. Ore niwa yoru ni mukete no kyuusoku ga hitsuyou da. Ase wo nagashita. Tsuki wo mita. Asa wo mukaete, yama wo koe, tani wo koe, yume wo koe, oka ni iru hitotsubu noishi wo hiroi, touku no sanjou no mittsu no hoshi ni nage, hoshi wa yoru wo tsutsumikomi, wareware no sumu 'sekai' wo sanbi shi ------tokei wo shimeshi, yubisasu te wo hitsuyou to suru tame ni.

Dobuzoko ni
Totetsumonaku oukina ishi ga nagekomareta.
Tobichitta kuro wa yoboshi wo kuroku someta.

Sono toki
'Neko no me' wa
Mattaku no kuro kara totsuzen hikari wo hanachi
Ichimokusan ni uchuu wo igi shita.

Soushite nochi
Alps sanchu kara
Tohou mo naku chiisana piano ga detekita.

Kowagaru koto wa nai
Xx fujin wa ima
Kokezuriochita shinde shimatta no de aru.

Kare mo mata, hitonigiri no suna de aru. Kore wa chijou e maki, samazamana hana wo umanebanaranai.
Ore wa mata, koko de fude o okaneba naranai.

-7/27/1978


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Zen Ya VIII

Dareka oshiete yatte kure, ore no yukue wo. Ore wa mita mono wa mita no da. Mienai mono mo mita to iihatte iru noda. Sumire no naka ni sensha ga, chiheisen no chikaku kara oukina kao ga mieru to itte iru noda.
Chi wa botan no hitokakera
Nagameru toki ni arch wo egaki
Me wo otosu koro niwa zujou ni aru.

Yama wa tani wo sonshou(respect) suru
Nazenara takai mono wa chi de
Hikui mono ga botan dakara.

Sore hodo boku wa kurutta noda.
Gen ni ore ga tabeteite
Sore ga kurutta shippo no you ni
Hanete, chitte me ga tsuburete shimau hodo ni.



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Zen Ya VII

Kami ga kami taroutosuru you ni, hito wa hito taroutoshi, ore wa ore taroutoshi, yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa ga kuru koro ni niwatori wa hito ni ikichi wo teikyou shi, ore wa onna to kyoubou shi, San juu san nin no otokotachi wo korosu. Korosareta otokotachi ga tannaru iki de aru to wakatta toki ore wa onna wo dakisukume, kita niaru St Louis no machi e iki, kona milk wo tsukami, kuruttayouni nakisakebi, kanojo wa soko de ten ni nobori, ore wa sore wo miru toki tenshi no youna hikari ni kanojo wa tsutsumare,ore no kuchi ga subete wo nomihosu toki yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa wo mukae, soshite mata, ore wa sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshi, kuru hi mo kuru hi mo hito wo mite machi wo mite juujika wo mite, ongaku wo mite, yane no ue ni tatsu jinrui no bunka to, ningen no shouchou wo tate doryoku wo oshimanu uchuujin no jitsuzou wo sore ni hakken shi, yagate kuru akuma no hi ni keifuku suru. Kore de iika. Mita mono wa douji ni kako to nari kyou to nari mirai to nari toki wo koe, tochi wo koe, umi wo koe, midori no me wo koe, kaitei e moguri, gendai no kagaku(science) to tokeai, hito wo koe, arashi wo koe, onna no karada wo koe, yume wo mite nureteshimau mono ni naru gurai nara atsui hou ga ii to ii, kurutta sensha wo shiki suru doubutsutachi ni korosareru kurai nara te no naka no kekkan no naka ni sumu ningentachi to tokeatta hou ga ii to iu. ----------


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Zen Ya VI

Ore wa tsukareta. Ore ga saigo ni ian no chi wo motomete miru mono ga aru to sureba, ore ni chuudan no sawari de aru zawazawa to iu.........onna no no-sleeve, kanojo no sugata de aru sono chibusa wa dekirukagiri shizen niore wa yasuragu. Sore wa mata inochi, ishuu de aru. Yue ni ore wa mou tsukare wo shitte toui sabaku e iki, mittsu no hoshi wo mitsuke, doushi wo ten to aogi, mittsu ni seinaru toiki wo age, ore wa geijutsu tarou to suru mono wo nikumi.
Hitei suru. Ore wa tsukareta. Ore wa tsukarekitta. Touku de joushou suru nagareboshi wo mita.


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Zen Ya V

Arayuru mono ga aru to sureba, ore no hana wa nai. Boku no bikuu ni wa nagai mukashi ni kurutta you na neji wo, tokei noyou na ballpen wo, nagai aida, sukoshizutsu sukoshizutsu irerareta kara. Ore nishikou ga aru to sureba sore wa oto da. Oto sata nashi. Mukashi kara genshi no sugata wa kawatte ore no atama ga ishiki suru hikari no oku, sore wa mata, koboreru you na reiteki. Nietagiru you na ikari no kuuki no naka no hitotsu no kyodai na hari. Karera wa tsune ni deru kikai naku, ore no ue ni kunrin shi, ore wo messhi, ore wo udarase, natsu wa fuyu yori mo iika to iu kanjou wo seibu shi, inoshishi wo chiribamete ore no me nonaka ni ire, ore no kankaku wo kyokudo ni hezurashi, ore ni kare wo nikume to shiji shita risei wo koroshi, ore ni kami wo shire to suru ore wa honki ka to iu, ore wa ore ka?


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Zen Ya IV

Yoru de aru. Shikou nado ari wa shinai. Shi(poesy) wa masashiku ore hitori de ari katsu kadan(flower bed) de aru.
Hitori no otoko ga sebiro de kaidan wo oriru. Me wa.........kyokudo ni shiru mono wa shitta no de aru. Me ga hito no nioi wo kaguhodo ni.........ashi wa kuruma ni mukau. Mukashi mita tougyuu ga gake wo suberiochiru you ni.
Nani wo mitaka? Nani mo mita. Gen ni aru mono subete mita. Kyokudo ni are wa ore wo igi shita. Sore wa oukii sonzai, ningen, tougyuu da. Sore wa musubitsukanu mono, akuma de aru. Hikari wa kare wo ishiki shi kyouki tarashimeta sonzai wa gen ni oku no yama kara mukatte tsukisusumu. Zen'ya wa nagai.


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Zen Ya III

Tsugi ni mita mono wa nandemonai ana de aru. Garasu de ari lens de aru. Basha de ari hikari, shikou senu atama, me no nai mono, hana kara atama ni taishite kekkan ga tsumatte shimatta onna. Zen'ya de aru. Higoto ore wa shikou senu. Higoto ore wa mono de aru. Chikara de ari hikari, yume de ari jittai, namanurui kiki, soshite kiki, oo ore no atama yo, ore no atama ni ore wa shitagau!
Oo mita. Soshite atama wa kanjita. Ishiki ga tsuzuki, kita wa obore, nishi ga higashi to kousaku suru. Ashita no yoru ni watashi wa onna o miru. Sakana no te wo motsu otoko wo miru.
Ki nade tsukiwa shinai. Boku wa kyokudo ni kyoubouka shita.


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Zen Ya II

Junjun ni boku wa miteitta. Kyoufu wo shikou shi, sore wo nouzui ni todometa. Soshite mata, tensai no shikou ga ore no nou wo sasshou shi, douji ni seijuku shita tomato no namajiru wo nomasete kureta. Junjun ni boku wa, jiyuu ni mita. Ore no sekai ga futatsu ari, sore ga mattaku chigatte ita. Hitotsu wa boku wa unmei wo junjun ni mitekita. Hitotsu wa boku wa......wakaru mono wa mita. Hito wo de ari kami de aru. Yue de ari shishi de aru. Sakuran wa chitsujo de aru. Nazenara watashi wa miteitta kara.


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Zen Ya

Naniyue no sei ka, shi ka, inochi ka, kami ka....naniyue no midori ka, hana ka, kawa ka, mori ka......mizu nashi da, ore no atama wa, karakara da. Soshite mata, shi de aru. Ongaku, sousureba mata, onna de aru. .........Kankaku da! Sou atama wa shikou suru. Soshite mata boku de aru. Soshite mata, ongaku de aru. Sousureba mata......hitori no onna de aru. Soshite mata ore wa.
Sonzai suru koto wo utagawanai. Ore ga iru koto wo utagawanai. Soshite mata hana de aru. Katsute wa hana wa ore no teki......amari ni chiisasugiru no da. Soshite mata ore no tomo......amari ni oukisugiru no da. Soshite mata shi, kore de owari da. Shi no tsugi kara da.
Ore no kokoro wa oukisugiru. Nazenara utsuwa ga chiisasugiru. Ore no kokoro wa tada no sonzai. Watashi wa sonzai suru mono ni keifuku suru.Onna wa kodomo da. Nazenara otoko wa inu da. Soshite mata, ore no atama wa shikou suru. Kankaku wo shikou suru. Dore ni mo kakenu. Yue ni ore wa kakenu.
Hitsuzen no baishaku da. Muimi no houshutsu da. Ranpi. Ari to arukoe wo kiku me, ikutsuka no koe o miru kuchi, soshite taberu tame ni ore no atama. Nazenara uma ga hi wo miru you ni, kiri ga tae wo suru you ni, kotoba wa nai. Tada aru no wa jittai, mujun kara shoujiru inochi, tamashii kara ikitekuru nara no ki, soshite mata kussatta atama de aru. Katsute no shouri wo motarashita no wa kono hikarabita kami no ke, oukina rutsubo de aru. Nikuya no waza ga ore no me ni shimiru. Katsute ore wa aishita. Kanpeki na yami wo. Soshite mata nani ka ari, nani mo tsukamenu te wo kourasete yorokobu haka no hi wo.